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sitting on a balcony at 3 am, looking up at the starless light-polluted sky, the highway noises blending together into one cacophonous harmony, contemplating the unimaginable vastness of the universe and our completely insignificant place in it all; feeling happy

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released September 14, 2016

As I have once again failed to keep in touch with any of my friends this year, Alone//Together is entirely me.

Shout out to the sun for letting life as we know it exist on Earth. You're doing a great job buddy

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Track Name: $$money$$
Well if I had a dollar
For every word I sung
That didn’t amount
To anything
I’d have enough dollars
To finally make a change
Cause without change
You can’t do anything

And I guess that is what
I’m really fighting for
A chance to make a change
And wanting something more
But there are days I think
That what I really want
Is to have some more
Money

So if I had a dollar
For every word I sung
That didn’t amount
To anything
I’d have enough money
To take care of myself
Cause when you don’t have money
You’re pretty fucked
Track Name: Disappear
I’m searching for the home that I have lost
It’s a million miles away
And drifting further every day
I’m searching for the home that I have lost

I’m trying to make sense of all my faults
It’s attrition from within
it’s a fight I’ll never win
I’m trying to make sense of all my faults

But even now
I can hear the sound
Of laughter coming near
But it’s gone, it’s never here
And one day
It will all
Disappear

I’m wishing on a star I’ll never see
And I won't escape the light
As I wander through the night
I’m wishing on a star I’ll never see

I’m leaving with a sense that I was wrong
It’s an empty hole inside
That I filled with shame and pride
I’m leaving with a sense that I was wrong

But even now
I can hear the sound
Of laughter coming near
But it’s gone, it’s never here
And one day
It will all
Disappear
Track Name: Central Anxious System
I've got this hole
Where my understanding should go
Where my whole self and self worth
Seems to fall, fall into
I'll never know
Who or what I'm supposed to be
When I look into the mirror
Who is looking back at me

And I can't seem to make sense
Of the patterns in my head
Of electrical impulses
That tell me I'm not dead

I can't pretend
I'll remember any of this
The person I construct
Really is, who I am
I playing a game
To see how long til I snap
And tear myself into
Someone I'll never know

And I can't seem to make sense
Of the patterns in my head
Of electrical impulses
That tell me I'm not dead
Of outdated social structures
And false dichotomies
Of hetero-normative thinking
And the gender binary

How do I fight the system
When is the system is yourself
And I do make a difference
When I've fucked up with myself

When I can't even make sense
Of the patterns in my head
Of electrical impulses
That tell me I'm not dead
Maybe it's enough
Track Name: song for all the Sad Songs
I could pretend that all my problems
Aren’t really all that bad
But then I’d be a fucking
Lying piece of shit
And maybe lying to yourself is
The only way to live
Without regret
But I’m not that far gone yet

Let me be a better version
Of a half thought out diversion
From a loneliness aversion
Getting sick of my subversion

But lying to myself
Is so fucking easy
I must be an expert at it
Cause I’ve gotten so much practice
It’s a useful little habit
That I’m taking for granted
So maybe I should ease up on the sadness

I could resent all of the people
That have their shit together
But then I’d be a fucking
Petty hypocrite
And maybe hating other people
Is the only way to live
Without respect
But I don’t hate myself yet

Let me answer all my questions
With some ultimate suggestion
To give off the big impression
That I’ve got some great depression

But lying to myself
Is so fucking easy
I must be an expert at it
Cause I’ve gotten so much practice
It’s a useful little habit
That I’m taking for granted
So maybe I should ease up on the sadness

Let me tell you all a story
That’s emotionally gory
Where the point is that I’m sorry
Please be sympathetic for me

But lying to myself
Is so fucking easy
I must be an expert at it
Cause I’ve gotten so much practice
It’s a useful little habit
That I’m taking for granted
So maybe I should ease up on the sadness
Track Name: Seventeen
I’m keeping track of all the things
That I wish I could do
While the list of things I can do
Gets smaller with each review
I’ve still got time, I tell myself
To up and run away
So I can spend another year
Just living day to day

And if I was still
Seventeen
I’d quit my job
And live in the ravine
I’d play music on whyte avenue
For food and gasoline
But more likely I’d
Sell my guitar for weed
Yeah more likely I’d
Sell my guitar for weed

I fear that I have settled down
And given up the fight
When I’d rather sleep for longer
Than stay up all the night
And I know that growing older
Doesn’t mean you're growing up
But the truth is obligation
Starts to feel like a setup

And if I was still
Seventeen
I’d quit my job
And live in the ravine
I’d play music on whyte avenue
For food and gasoline
But more likely I’d
Sell my guitar for weed
Yeah more likely I’d
Sell my guitar for weed

Maybe.
There’s another world.
Where we.
Lived the best we could
Maybe.
I won’t regret the time I spent
On stupid things
Like paying rent

And if I was still
Seventeen
I’d quit my job
And live in the ravine
I’d play music on whyte avenue
For food and gasoline
And I’d never have to
Be someone but me
No I’d never have to
Be someone but me
Track Name: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I’ve taken over
I’m giving up on waiting
for something to give in
I can’t see it
I’m still in it
I’m still here

We're drifting aimlessly,
(Through existentiality)
Abstractly, and objectively,
From reality

It's a lost cause.
Finding hope
In fundamental
Isms.
It's a false choice.
Living life
Looking for a point.

We’re driven thoughtlessly
(Thinking that it’s history)
Effectively, and pointlessly
From community

It's a lost cause.
Finding hope
In fundamental
Isms.
It's a false choice.
Living life
Looking for a point.

We’re running desperately
(Hoping it’s not hopelessly)
Efficiently, and infinitely
From biology.

It's a lost cause.
Finding hope
In fundamental
Isms.
It's a false choice.
Living life
Looking for a point.

We’re living lucidly
(A little nihilisticly)
Completely, and in harmony
With eternity

It's a lost cause.
Finding hope
In fundamental
Isms.
It's a false choice.
Living life
Looking for a point.
Track Name: Dying is Easy
Where do I go from here
The loneliness of freedom
Is the the only thing I fear
And the outcome's not so certain
Maybe I should disappear
And be certain I'll have freedom
Let's be crystal fucking clear
I won't survive

Past the point of no return
Past the lessons I won't learn
And the only that matters is
I'll live another year
I'll live until I am no longer here

You live until you die
You'll die if you're not living
You live until you die
And then you're dead
You live until you die
You'll die if you're not living
You live until you die
And then you're dead
You're dead
You're dead
You're dead
You're dead
Track Name: forget-me-one-day
I'm losing my mind
One day at a time
Forgetting the words
That you say are mine
I can't feel your touch
I can't hear your voice
I can't see the pain
I'm causing in you

So if I do forget you
Try not to forget me
And maybe one day I will
Remember

I worry about
The pain in my hands
The cough in my throat
Time's callous demands
I can't hold a note
I can't keep a beat
I can't see the pain
I'm causing in you

So if I do forget you
Try not to forget me
And maybe one day I will
Remember

I'm sorry that I
Will one day forget
Your
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